100 Things About Me

This is it, the ultimate self-gratuitous meme that bloggers bother with. I can't really call them facts; maybe some of them are subjective opinions I have regarding myself. I can't tell. It's just another challenge I took just for the lulz, and I ended up putting relatively a lot of effort in trying not to make it merely a list of loves, hates and meta statements about how I can't think of anything else to put in there.

Me, Three Months Ago

I might as well tell more about myself.

Here's a picture of my forearm a few months ago. At that time, academics and extracurriculars weren't going the way they're ideally supposed to, to put it very simply. I used to take a belt and hit myself on that area repeatedly. There were small, dispersed bruises there as a result. They've already faded as of now.

One thing to know about me is that I'm a self-harmer. I have a hard time dealing with anger and disappointment, and end up turning them against myself. I get depressed at times, and end up injuring myself most of the time.

Strangely, it isn't a habit that I loathe. I know that with my disposition, I can never be an ordinary, wholesome person who takes every precaution to take care of themselves. I find that the dark thoughts that cause me to hurt myself are worth going through; so I won't be aggressively trying to stop self-harming anytime soon. Though I'll try to avoid life-threatening injuries; I know that I don't want to die yet, but that's another story.